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About Toxic
My life has been a series of bad decisions.
Marrying an abusive man was the first... but falling for a dangerous inmate where Iโm a nurse may be the worst.
Heโs brutal, heartless, and twisted.
But heโs also the only one to notice the bruises on my skin.
His forbidden touch becomes my addiction.
His drugging kisses my obsession.
After I learn the truth about why heโs in prison, I try to escape, but he finds me.
Now I'm his prisoner.
Additional Info
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This story contains content that may be disturbing to sensitive readers. Please mind the triggers. This is a taboo / forbidden dark romance and features:
Dub / non con
Praise
Pierced hero
Back door play
Coersion
Bondage
Domestic Violence / abuse
Graphic violence
Blood / gore
Psychological manipulation
Sexual content
Murder
Blackmail
Stalking
Sex near a dead body
Abduction
Torture
Pregnancy / miscarriage
Heroine in captivity. -
My hands flex on his skin, but heโs so intent on my response he either doesnโt notice or doesnโt care. Beneath my touch, he turns to granite and a part of me wants to take back my question, but I canโt.
โWhatโs wrong?โ I ask, and I hope it deflects from this line of conversation. โDid I hurt you?โ
He breaks eye contact and looks down to where my hands are touching his skin. The moment his eyes land on where our bodies connect, it makes me want to drop my hand. How close he always manages to get to me whenever I let curiosityโor stupidityโget the better of me is astounding.
โWould take more than that to hurt me, little mouse.โ
I feel his words like dark secrets. They unfurl inside me, a molten mixture of pleasure and shame, a heady combination that invites me to ask for more. Heโs a craving I canโt quite shake. A disease slowly spreading through me. My head tells me I should walk away, but my greedy heart begs for more of his illicit attention.
โLittle mouse?โ I keep my focus on my fingers. Otherwise, theyโll betray my nerves. I swipe antibacterial cream over his skin and realize resistance is practically impossible. Not when I can feel his muscles flexing underneath my hands, the heat coming off him in waves, and my bodyโs answering thrum.
It has been so long since Iโve felt anything other than violence and fear. The two have become so tightly intertwined that I was certain until now Iโd never feel this again. Never feel warmth pooling low in my belly and radiating through my core or the answering wetness slicking between my legs.
Horror accompanies the rush of pleasure, and I want to fling myself backward, but I know I canโt let this dangerous man see my reaction. I canโt let him know the effect he has on me. Canโt let him have that kind of power over me.
โYes,โ he finally says. โBecause you always look like you want to scurry away into a corner and hide.โ
His words make me want to do exactly that. My eyes dance to the door and then back to my hand as I swipe away another smear of blood from his skin. It would be so easy to escape him and his all-too- knowing stare. The reaction I canโt deny. The yearning. Ten steps would bring me right back to my dreary life where I can drown in the day-to- day misery and the pain that blots out my unfortunate reality.
They are ten steps I donโt take. I refuse to let King get the better of me again and return to doctoring his wounds, trading the wipes for clean, white bandages.ย Unlike Vic, when this man pressures me, tests my boundaries, I find myself wanting to fight back, wanting to go at him with teeth bared and fists balled.
He lays a big, scratched-up hand over mine, pinning it to the heated flesh of his well-muscled chest. I peer up through my lashes and find the corner of his mouth tipped up in a half smile that would look pleasant on any other man.
On King, itโs a warning.
Or a threat.
My heart thumps in my chest, a rabbit trying to escape the pursuit of a predator. I take deep breaths to try to calm its frenetic pace, but itโs futile while in his presence. I finish the bandage on his chest without taking the bait. Despite how alive he makes me feel, or maybe because of it, I wonโt encourage him. I wonโt go down that road. I did it once before, and it cost me everything.
Iโm waiting for him to throw out another challenge as I finish with his chest and arms, dump the trash into a bag, and set it by the door.
โCan you stand for me?โ I gesture with a roll of gauze I grabbed from my bag of supplies. โI need to wrap your ribs until they can get you in for an X-ray.โ
He obliges, reminding me of a half-tame animal submitting to human attention only to turn around and rip the personโs throat out seconds later. His abdomen ripples, and the low hum of desire that Iโve steadily been trying to ignore roars back to life made sharper by the edge of danger.
Like fucking in public.
Itโs wrong and dirty and you sort of hate yourself for enjoying it so much, but you come harder than you ever have in your life. It makes my breathing grow ragged, and Iโm afraid he can hear me but canโt find the willpower to back away.
I have to lean close to wrap the bandage around his chest, which doesnโt help. His scent fills my nose like a drug. My fingers brush against his stomach, and Iโd give anything for five minutes to explore the line of muscles that disappears into his waistband.
The fact that I manage to finish binding his ribs is a small miracle. He doesnโt make a move to touch me the entire time, even though I spend it wishing he would.ย When Iโm done, I can feel his eyes on me, patient and predatory as I pack up the rest of my supplies.
โStop doing that!โ I bite out, revealing just how badly he has my nerves frayed.
He gives me that half-grin again. โDoing what?โ
โStaring at me like that. Are you trying to piss me off? Do you want me to have you reassigned?โ
As though daring me, he takes a step forward. โYou wonโt do that,โ he challenges.
โNo?โ I retort though I can hear the flimsy note to my voice.
His grin widens. โNo.โ
I shake my head and feel my body drift closer to his. โI donโt know what you want from me, I donโt know what you think weโre doing here, but we shouldnโt. Letโs just get that clear right now. Also, I appreciate your concern for my safety, but there isnโt anything you can do to help me, and this sort of attention is only going to make my situation worse.โ
He shifts, and my whole body stiffens as he brings his lips to my cheek where the memory of the bruise throbs.
โDonโt,โ I protest, but it comes out sounding more breathy than firm.
โIโll make you a deal,โ he says as he closes a bit more of the distance between us. I nearly whimper from frustration, fear, and need. โOne kiss. One kiss and I wonโt bother you again. No one will have to know.โ
โYou canโt be serious,โ I whisper, but I know from the determined look in his eyes heโs serious. โWhy?โ
His lips return to my cheek, surprising me with his gentleness, and Iโm almost ashamed that my initial instinct is to flinch away from him. He seems to recognize it, and he sighs, pausing long enough to meet my eyes. We wait . . . watching each other. But when he doesnโt follow through with a slap or a biting comment, my traitorous body relaxes.
My body is clearly an idiot.
โCโmon,โ he coaxes as his lips grow bolder. โLet me give you this. One kiss. I promise youโll enjoy it. Let me show you a little something sweet to take away from the sour. One kiss, and if you want me to walk away after I will.โ
Heโs the devil incarnate, the snake that tempted Eve. Though, Iโm sure as hell not in paradise.ย I hate myself for even considering it. Loathe the way my body shouts at me to say yes.
โYou wonโt bother me again?โ The responding triumphant gleam in his eyes screams that Iโve taken a step off a precipice. There will be no going back after this.
โScouts honor.โ I snort, causing him to grin. โSo, is that a yes?โ
โYou asked me earlier if I wanted to know your name.โ
He nods, but itโs a quick, jerky movement. For the first time, heโs the one caught off guard.
โI think Iโd like that.โ Itโll be like saying goodbye, or at least thatโs what I tell myself.ย Goodbye to the rush of desire, the feeling of being alive. It was fun while it lasted but this level of craziness leads nowhere good.
For a moment, I think my ears are tricking me, but no. King makes a deep, satisfied groan in the back of his throat. Iโm so distracted I donโt notice heโs been slowly moving closer until his body is pressed fully against mine. My hands go to his shoulders, and Iโm grateful for the bandages separating us. Too much contact with his skin and my brain would surely short circuit.
โGracin,โ he says, his lips so close they graze the shell of my ear. โMy name is Gracin.โ
Then his mouth covers mine.